⊙ 遊俠手記

B.S.
Why would I say that? Because I am living in my aunt's house instead of my mom's, and sometime hard feeling just come to you. In my experience, my aunt pormise my mom to take care of me in United State, so she gets nervous everytime I am sick or injured. That properly sounds make sence to you right now, but it just make me feel annoying because now on I can't stay up longer than 10:00 p.m. =_=''

Maybe sometime you just want to play a joke or talk disrespectfully to your mom or dad, but all this action will just start a fight between me and my aunt/uncle. Everytime I express my opinion or idea, they think I am challenging them, and a argument (or you can call it "just listen to me" conversation) started. Perhaps my attitude isn't what my older relative wants to see, but than they just start telling me things like "no one is going to like you if you talk like that" or "You better remember what we did for you". Personally of course I am thinkful for she did for me, and I feel sorry to make her feel up sad, but that doesn't mean she has to right to make me feel up sad too...= ( sometime I just don't know how to talk to her.

I don't know if I mentioned it already, but I am just going to repeat myself. I went back to Hong Kong last summer, and I thought I could find the things, the people, and the places that is belong to me, but later I found out that those staff is gone since I leave this place when I was 12. In the first year I came to this country, I thought things will go back to what it was. I will be back to HK, live there, and have a happy life. But now I think things doesn't work that way. The old time I was dreaming of actually is just a dream...ar well, perhaps that's is what it feels like as you grown up and losing something call childhood? ^^"