⊙ 遊俠手記

Sometime, actually a lot of time, when I have time by myself, such as when I am on the school bus or taking a shower, I ask myself what am I good at and what did I accomplish. To seriously think about it, academically I am not the worst, but neither the best; physically…I guess I will skip that part; for maturity, my family always illustrate their opinion toward my immaturity, and for some reason I know very well that I am not doing what my “mature self” is telling me to do. Is that mean I want to rebel from my family’s wish? Or is just the fact that I don’t want to, you know, grown up.

If you did read the first paragraph carefully, then you would realize that many “I” had been use. If anyone who is reading this knows something about psychology, can they explain to me what kind of state of mind was I experiencing when I type that paragraph out? Because in my opinion, when you see so many “I” in a writing, that means the author is trying hard on getting attention, so was I?

Ok back to the topic, as I was saying, I am resisting from growing up. If you ask me why would I think that way, than I will tell you that I don’t want to take reasonability, I want to be taken care instead of caring, I want to be love instead of loving. This sounds crazy, but perhaps I am really crazy?

Please forgive me for showing my weak side.