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近日, 發生了許多事…
我也看到很多事, 明白多了……



9/5
There’s something concealing in my heart for a long time.
That … I’ve told somebody (She’s J.) once before. But after that, I never spoke about it anymore because it’s too horrible. She didn’t want to listen it forever.
Then, it was just keeping as a secret in me. I haven’t thought to recall it. I only want it to be quiet, and forget it slightly, slightly…
However in these days, it brought me quite a lot of headaches. I couldn’t ignore it days and nights.
I wanted to find someone to lighter my besetment. And … I chose her(X).
I trust her. Thus I choose her.
She always told me her secrets. Yes. That’s true. I guessed she could help me…
I’ve thought that she would get a surprise and our relation will turn worse due to it. I didn’t care. Since what I wanted, was just going to speak it out.
In the midnight, I told it to her in MSN.







11/5
I found her again. Not because of it, it due to our music test.
I chatted with her in the MSN, talking about the time to practice.
Suddenly, she changed her name in MSN, added 5 Chinese words. I got shocked.
Then, I said, ‘I hope you'll not speak out my things...’
‘No, I won’t.’ And she changed back her original name.
I don’t know whether I’m correct or not. I don’t care about it because I knew the result before I spoke.







12/5
My friends came to my home and practiced music.
Oli… Freda… Fionna… But except her.
She told me a reason and I had heard about it before. Although I knew there 90% was true, I didn’t really believe her.
I don’t know why… Maybe it’s because I believed there was another bigger reason hiding behind it…







16/5
I seldom feel sad and angry to others. I can swear.
I was extremely depressed in the whole week.
I spoke less, contacted less with others.
I couldn’t do anything. I know there’s no ways can be fixed anymore.
What I can do, is keeping silence and leave quietly…

But at last, I told my problems to another one(Fi).
Never mind, there’s just a month to go for the summer holiday. After the holiday, nobody will remember me…

At night, I chatted MSN with Fi. She advised me to speak to X directly and clearly.
Ar… I’m really not good at that…
In the midnight, X was also online. We saw it.
Hence, Fi helped me to speak to her…! And I know, that was only a misunderstanding…

Fi, I owe you a cup of chocolate.







21/5
3 days had passed, things were remain the same.
I’ve tried to chat with X, but it seemed not work.
She’s just a pretty girl, a normal female human. But NOT MY WHOLE LIFE!
There’re more meaning things waiting for me.
I’ll not waste my time and heart on her anymore…







22/5
There’s never an end for things, at less that’s what I saw…
After one thing ended, another one will go up.
Sigh… I don’t know what’s going on now. All I want is just going to stop all troubles.
I understand there’s no peace in the world. I can’t expect anymore…







24/5
Today is Saturday. It seems should be a delightful day.
Yes… It is, but only in the beginning.

(I want… to share the following massage with one of my friends……)
你對於星期六充滿 ”疑問”,
好的. 我要在就告訴你發生了什麼事……
日期: 2008年5月24日
時間: 12:30 p.m.~about 3 p.m.
經過: 1) 12:30 我到吉之島跟Xav+Oli會合, 但Oli一大早已來到, 當然Xav還沒出現. 從Oli口中得知, Xav book1場, 不過是12~1 p.m.
2) 1:00 p.m. Xav終於出現. 無奈之下, 我們只好決定不用band room, 不練習鼓, 改到我家練習. 由吉之島步行回家.
3) 練習了多久? 10~20 mins啦吧… 不過都只是練習主歌那部份, 副歌? 碰也沒碰過! 我呢? Saxophone也沒有拿出來, 只是坐在一旁看她們.
4) 10~20 mins 後, 大家都坐著談天, 然後又拿出些Disney的歌曲來唱(BEAUTY and the BEAST)
5) 大約3 p.m., 大家都離開了.
晚上, 你的”開會問題”, 真令我摸不著腦…
我真的不知道你在說什麼!
後來經你的詳細解釋後, 我才略知一二……
你或許不想再提起此事,
但我覺得問題的背後藏著太多問題,
結果我去了了解此事.

各人(3人+1獸)對Fionna於2008年5月24日失蹤之證供:
S: 1) 星期五, Fi自己說她星期六大部份時間也很忙, 因為要拿證件.
2) 星期六, Oli的手機泡了葡萄果汁, 結果…她好像關了機. 還記得泡了果汁後, 她把手機方在我的saxophone盒上, 真是…!!! (太不雅… 聲滅)
Fr: 1) 星期六, Fi告訴我她打電話找Xav+Oli找了一個下午, 不論怎樣也沒有人接聽. 後來發現, 原來Fi所打的Xav的電話號碼是舊號碼, 難怪打不通啦!
2) 星期五, Fi自己說她星期六大部份時間也很忙, 因為要拿證件.
Xav: 1) Fi不能出席練習, 是因為要拿證件. (小獸問:不是要開會嗎???) 開會? 什麼會呀?沒有聽說過. (小獸問:Oli說是你說的.) 她又作故事啦! 真是的… 亂作故事…!!!
Oli: 1) (小獸問: Fionna要開什麼會呀?!!) 你用得着那麼激動嗎？她說她今天沒會開. (小獸問:誰說她開會的?) ＸＡＶＩ. (小獸問:這下午為啥你們跟我說她拿證件的?) 我記錯了. 我記得好像是我記錯了. (Oli的對話, 有MSN記錄為證, 如你有疑問, 可問我取記錄)

總結:
1) 我們不是沒有通知你參加練習, 只是我們知道你沒空, 很忙, 所以才免得跟你說聲. 我猜… 我們沒理由把你的話當作廢話吧… 不當一回事. 不如說回那個Engish Literature PPT吧. 如果我的電腦沒有忽然康復, 我想一定沒有人會打電話通知我做什麼. 即使那天我能用MSN, 主動地問了你們全部人, 最後我卻只得到一個答覆: ‘分好哂工冇妳份’, 然後全部人都消失了. 第二天, 苦問很久, 在Lunch time後才得到一個打summary的位置. 後來我打了summary後, 卻吃了滿口子灰……!
2) 至於說你開會一事, 那全是Oli的問題, 我們3個都是受害者!!!

好啦… 我想說的, 也該到此為止, 沒什麼可說了.














凡事沒有永恆, 也沒有絶對.